Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Speaking out against sexual descrimination in Anchorage and the story of my daughter.

I have only one child.

She is a beautiful intelligent young women of 22 years old.

And she is gay.

I began t notice that she did not play with dolls or want to wear dresses when she was just a toddler, and as the years passed I picked up on other signs that she was just not that into boys.

Still she did not come out to me until she was about sixteen years old, and only after I assured her repeatedly that I loved her unconditionally and would NEVER stop loving her.

When she finally did tell me it came out in a gush and after we talked and hugged she spent the whole day smiling and acting as if a giant weight had been lifted off of her. I was very happy that I was able to help release my daughter from under that tremendous burden.

But for the longest time I remained the only one she would tell.

One day she confided in a friend of hers from the church she attended in Georgia. (I am divorced and my daughter spent much of her time living in Atlanta, Georgia with her conservative Christian mother.)

The friend told her father, who then told the youth pastor who confronted my little girl and told her that she was not allowed to be involved in the youth ministry anymore. She was essentially kicked out and no longer allowed to spend time with her friends, whose parents were instructed to keep their children away from my daughter as if she had some horrible disease that they might catch from her.

My daughter, who rarely cries, called me on the phone sobbing so badly that I could not at first make out what had happened. It took me an hour to calm her down and to tell her that what had happened to her was NOT her fault. It was the fault of small minded superstitious assholes who are so ignorant that they don't understand the first thing about biology and sexuality.

You see they felt that the Bible gave them the right, nay the responsibility, to discriminate against my daughter. She was not like them, and therefore she was not good enough to be invited to go to church functions, or play with church friends, or be taught about the love of Jesus Christ on church grounds. (Ironic isn't it?)

The ministers had so poisoned the minds of the people at their church that almost every single one of them, including my daughter's own mother, turned their back on my baby.

So I brought her back here to Alaska. To a place where nobody would dare make her feel like she was a bad person or disrespect her And if they did I would be here to make them sorry.

My daughter got her GED, went to work for the PAC, and had a great time. She blossomed into an amazing young woman right before my eyes and everybody who met her seemed to just love her. I received more compliments about my daughter than I ever have for anything that I have done personally. And that was just fine with me.

My daughter has been working and traveling all over the United States for the past few years and I have not seen much of her lately, but she is coming to stay with me for an extended period of time starting this Friday.

So today's assembly is very important because my daughter may decide to stay here in Anchorage for awhile. And the idea that somebody may decide that she cannot stay in their rental property, or that they will not allow her to work for them, simply because of who and how she loves is absolutely unacceptable to me. And it should be unacceptable to anybody who cares about equality and privacy.

I will be there tonight at the Loussac Library, around 5:00 to listen to the testimony and to show my support. I had thought I would also testify but it looks like I will barely get there in time for the start of the testifying so I will probably instead simply listen carefully and blog about it tomorrow.

However I encourage ALL of you to come if you can and show Anchorage that we are an open minded community that accepts people of all colors, religions, and sexual preference.

Oh and wear the color blue so that we can show our unity for the LGBT community.

(By the way I have my daughter's full permission to share her story with you. I would NEVER have betrayed her trust but she felt it may help others to understand the struggles that young gay people face in our society. Like I said, she is an amazing young woman.)

59 comments:

  1. Anonymous3:17 PM

    Sounds like you are an amazing father as well!

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  2. Anonymous3:26 PM

    What a wonderful blog from a father so proud of his daughter. She is of you too!! (I'm teary!!)

    Welcome Home on Friday!! How exciting for both of you!! Take some time away from here to enjoy yourselves!

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  3. Anonymous3:28 PM

    Thank you for being a real parent to your daughter. What a gift you gave her.

    Good luck to all Alaskans tonight at the library. Lift the veil and show the truth.

    Ripley in CT

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  4. Powerful story, Gryph. Thank you to both of you for sharing. One of my students just wrote a paper about her coming out during middle school. Similar story in that she had shared with a friend who then told her parents who in turned called the school to complain. My student shared her anger and hurt at that betrayal. Her essay ended with her telling her mom on the way to Walmart and her mother's unconditional love and acceptance. After that, her mom made sure they attended gay pride events. Her mom wecomed her friends. This student is a remarkable young woman who demonstrates every day that being gay is part of who she is, not what she is.

    Thanks again. I will share your story with her tomorrow.

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  5. Maeve3:40 PM

    G.
    Thank you for being who you are and for sharing it with us. You and your daughter are fortunate to have each other, and to be so in sync.

    I can't make the assembly meeting tonight, but my heart is with you all, and I'll be sending good energy.
    Peace
    Maeve

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  6. Anonymous3:47 PM

    What a wonderful and loving father.

    I'm sorry for the people who abused and misrepresented the Name of Jesus.

    Mia
    MN

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  7. Anonymous3:52 PM

    Gryphen, this is my most favorite post you have ever had.

    Congratulations to you, and to your terrific daughter. You are amazing people! YES, everyone who can come tonight, stand up for LGBT rights in Anchorage and throughout America! I want the Democratic Party to make gay marriage part of our official party platform! WHY NOT???

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  8. Anonymous4:02 PM

    You're one proud daddy, easy to tell. Good luck tonight, Gryphen. pvazwindy

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  9. Anonymous4:20 PM

    Thanks for sharing. Those of us who are part of the LGBT community need to voice our stories more, as well as claim our place within the community. I am the daughter of a lesbian, and her community is my community. Though I do not label myself gay, I AM part of the community and will fight for equal rights till there is not a need to do so.
    A girl can dream eh?

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  10. Anonymous4:21 PM

    Gryphen and daughter: I am sending you my support and good wishes. You are doing the right thing to make the world safer for all of us who are different from one other -- and we are ALL different from one other. I am reminded of a Gloria Steinem quote. She was always being asked if she was gay, and she wanted an answer that would be respectful of everyone, while answering this question truthfully, for her. Finally, she hit upon the right response: "Not yet."

    Me too. And great good luck and best wishes to your daughter, for always. (I am sure that hideous response from the church made her stronger. Not that I have any respect for such a vile reaction.)

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  11. FEDUP!!!4:29 PM

    Your daughter is one lucky gal to be able to call you daddy!
    My hat off to both of you!

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  12. We've got your's and you daughter's back. Always. Thanks Gryphen! Peace!

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  13. One race, the human race. We are ALL God's children.

    Too bad religion teaches the opposite sometimes.

    Stay strong Grypen and daughter - and everyone else!

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  14. Anonymous4:52 PM

    Gryphen, that is a really touching and heartbreaking story, all at the same time. My daughter disclosed her orientation to me at the age of 16 as well, and it was WONDERFUL for her to hear and for me to say "honey, that's no big deal, I love you no matter what!".

    I can't wait for the day when telling people that you love someone of the same sex carries the same shock and outrage as telling them you love someone of the opposite sex has....which is NONE.

    In the long run, your daughter's "friends" at church did the her a bigger favor here. Their hypocrisy and judgemental attitudes saved her from having to deal with them any longer when they uncloaked who they really were. This church is certainly a case of "with friends like you, who needs enemies?"

    Enjoy your time together! As we both know, some of the most AMAZING people to know in life are in the LGBT community. Best wishes~

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  15. great post Gryph. Good luck tonight and have fun with your daughter!

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  16. Beautiful, wonderful story. Thanks for sharing it with us. Sounds like you are blessed with an incredible daughter and she is blessed with a loving, caring father. Would that more families were like that.

    Thanks again!

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  17. Your daughter is so lucky to have such a loving father! This is truly a heartwarming story!

    I am happy to say that my daughters (ages 15 and 12) do not view the world in terms of black and white or straight and gay, etc. Although we still have a long way to go, I look at my daughters and their friends and think that I might just live to see the day when all people are considered as ... well, "people" -- without any qualifiers. How great would that be?

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  18. the problem child5:48 PM

    You are the best daddy! Please include me in one of those reunion hugs with your brave and beautiful girl.

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  19. Thanks for sharing your story. Best wishes to you and your daughter, who like any other human deserve no less than equal treatment, rights, respect, etc. As for the "church" folk in GA, "small-minded superstcious assholes" indeed!

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  20. Good Luck!

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  21. "Small minded superstitious assholes" INDEED! Unfortunately they are everywhere and progress is slow—why simple fair-minded treatment of others is such a difficult concept, I do not know—but at least there is progress with each generation. Thanks for a wonderful story and best wishes to you and your daughter.

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  22. Gryphen, I loved you for many reasons, but now I have another one. Your daughter is blessed and so are you.

    My beloved only sister is gay. I am lucky to be a Canuck...so we havent had to deal with such intolerance for many years now. It did happen in the early 70's though, and some punk drove her car right off a huge expressway. The police at the time could care less.

    Today she is happily married, and had a huge wedding with over 200 family and friends in attendance.

    I wish I could be with all of you tonight..but I will be in spirit. I know in my heart you win...Prevo and his ilk will lose. Have faith.

    Laurie

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  23. Wow, I didn't think I could adore you any more than I already do .... you proved me wrong! Thank you Gryphen :)

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  24. crystalwolf aka caligrl6:14 PM

    Gryphen, what a awesome and beautiful story, and how lucky your daughter is to have a Dad like you :)
    I hope everyone turn out for this in anchorage, I can not even believe this is happening in this day and age....as you say "it is unacceptable!"
    Thank you and your wonderful Daughter for sharing.

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  25. CorningNY6:25 PM

    Good for you, Gryphen. And shame on your daughter's mother for rejecting her. The horrible things people do--and the pain they inflict--in the name of God is just incredible, and incredibly wrong.

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  26. Anonymous6:59 PM

    You are amazing. As the adult that a young person first came out to, and as one who holds unconditional love for this person, your story as a loving father made me tear up. You and your daughter are very lucky to have each other.

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  27. Thank you. My daughter came out to me three years ago (at age 16). I am worried and hopeful both about her life but I was glad - so glad - that I was the kind of parent a child would and could confide in.
    I appreciate you more than ever now for your love and compassion for your daughter.

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  28. Gryphen .. you are such a wonderful father! Your daughter is so lucky to have you and you are blessed to have her. She sounds amazing! Please give her my (and our ... your blogger friends) best. Namaste, my friend.

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  29. Anonymous7:24 PM

    "You see they felt that the Bible gave them the right, and the RESPONSIBILITY, to discriminate..."

    Your daughter was no different the moment after her 'secret' became known than the moment before. Surely, her rejectors are blind.

    Eventually, seeing, thinking and self-reflective individuals will come to a point when their
    experience of the world invalidates the man-made doctrine of the religious right. They will reject the ill-conceived responsibility imposed on them.

    Thank you for sharing this very personal story, Gryphen. Blessings to you and your daughter.

    Curiouser

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  30. Snowing in Alaska7:28 PM

    That's an awesome story! Thank your kid for allowing you to share the personal side of this issue with us. She's a keeper, and she's perfect just the way she is. We will prevail!

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  31. Anonymous7:48 PM

    The times, they are a changin'. Thank goodness.

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  32. Oh, man Gryphen. This, by far, is one of my most favoritest posts. You're an awesome dad and your daughter is so very lucky to have had such a supportive father to see her through the hardest moment of her life. I have no doubt that your daughter is an awe inspiring young woman with steel in her spine the likes of which make her papa mighty proud.

    Well done, my friend. Well done.

    Hugs, A friend in the lower 48

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  33. I will try again. Gryphen - you really need to fix your site. I think you have done something because it's not as bad as it was - but it's not easy to comment. I think you would have a lot more comments if it were easier. I have no clue how to do it, I'm just sayin'. If this comment goes through, I would just like to say welcome to Alaska to your daughter.

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  34. Anonymous8:22 PM

    OK one more time. You need to fix how comments are made. I guarantee you would have a lot more comments if it were easier. OK this time I will try anonymous.

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  35. Anonymous9:17 PM

    I struggle constantly with the gay issue as far as whether or not it is forbidden by the Bible. That being said, I believe that homosexuality is not how things are meant to be; however, by the same token, I don't believe it is a choice. Why would anyone "choose" to live such a heart-wrenching, painful life? I also believe that someone else's sexuality is none of my business. It is personal and between that person and God. Jesus never said that we should judge other people's lifestyles; he said that ABOVE ALL ELSE we should love one another. That doesn't mean that I should love everyone unless he/she is gay. People like Rev. Prevo are so anti-Christian yet they thump their Bibles loudly and publicly. Jesus would never persecute nor shun someone who is gay. Rather, He would welcome the gay person and envelope him/her with his love. It is a truth that is lost on most pseudo-Christians.

    So along with homosexuality, I also struggle with modern, organized religion. They all seem to develop their own man-made rules that truly go against the teachings of Christ which were all based in love of one another.

    Bless you Gryphen for your unconditional love of your daughter and support of those who may be different.

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  36. onejrkitty9:32 PM

    Ok, I am way too old to date you so I guess I got to adopt you ! And your daughter.

    This is such a good example of what I hate, yes HATE organized religion of any sort. ( I am Daoist.)

    It just seems that whenever people get together "as a group" all it really means is that someone has to be outside the "group" or else there is no "group."

    Makes me deeply concerned what is literally going on in the hearts and heads of people who seem so ordinary and so full of "faith."

    Sorry, but I prefer Bill Mahr -- there is a "man" for you. ANYONE who has the guts to put out a movie like "Religious" (SP?) has my respect.

    And I find it so hard to have any respect for "religious" people.

    Your story says it all far more clearly.

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  37. thanks for sharing...love the post!

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  38. i really hope local support can encourage AK as a state to make sure basic human rights -like housing and employment- can never be denied to anyone based on their sexual orientation.

    all of the science supports that people are genetically born gay, straight or in-between. if nothing else, the recent discovery of a gene in fruit flies that literally turns on or off their homosexual drive is just more real support of that.

    so firing or evicting someone (or refusing them the job/apartment in the first place) because they were born gay is exactly like doing because of the skin tone they were born with.

    hell, the US has laws that say we can't do that based on someone's actual choice of religious faith, or because or their weight....

    fully legal protection from sexual orientation-based discrimination really is the civil rights battle of our day, anyone arguing otherwise is a blinded fool.

    i'm straight, and this is one of the causes i have actually demonstrated for.

    good luck and congrats on being a great dad! :)

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  39. Anonymous2:54 AM

    Beautiful post! I hope that the assambly brings out the best in people. Your daughter is very lucky to have a Dad like you.

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  40. Thanks for telling your story, Gryphen. You and your daughter are so lucky to have each other! It's a bit too far to come from D.C. to Anchorage, so I'll wear blue and hope my hardest for the two of you, and for all of the GLBT communities.

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  41. Gryphen, I read your blog every day and this is the best post ever. I was a teenager in the 70's when people started to feel comfortable about openly declaring their sexual orientation. As it happened my two best friends in high school told me the year after we graduated that they were gay. I asked them when they realized that and they told me they had always known. I knew them well enough to understand that being gay is an essential part of their being, not a choice. So that nonsense that people who are gay shouldn't be is just wrong.

    Enjoy the time with your daughter!

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  42. Anonymous6:17 AM

    Beautifully written. I'm sorry your daughter had to endure so much suffering. The hardest thing I ever had to tell my parents was that I wanted to smoke a cigarette! Thank you for all your writing.

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  43. Here is why I don't believe in the God of the Bible. Why does Jesus let a-holes like those GA church people hurt others in his name? And this goes on century after century. Jesus preferred to hang out with society's marginalized. I often say I prefer gay people to straights most of the time! Better sense of humor from adversity.

    The only truly Christian church I have been to is a renegade American Catholic church in Minneapolis, St. Joan of Ark. They do "weddings" for gay people, the nuns are all living together, they provide partner benefits at the shelters they run....lots of love and caring about their fellow man. NO ONE turned away.

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  44. womanwithsardinecan7:07 AM

    Thank you for sharing your daughter's story. You are a wonderful father and she sounds like a wonderful daughter. I certainly can't say the same for all of those so-called "Christians." What a horrible "joke" they are in our world.

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  45. Bones AK7:19 AM

    Beautiful post, perhaps your best ever! I look forward to meeting your daughter.
    Intolerance is so unacceptable.

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  46. Anonymous7:23 AM

    The reason that so many people have responded to your writing is because it comes from the heart, and you expressed your unconditional love for your daughter in such beautiful terms.

    I looked at the headlines in your Anchorage paper and read that they were considering whether or not to extend legal protection in city law against discrimination in employment, housing, finance and public to gays, lesbians and bisexuals. CONSIDERING?????

    Since when isn't everyone granted the same legal protections against discrimination everywhere and in everything?? To do otherwise is a Hate Crime. I know that Alaska joined the other states late in the game, and is somewhat removed from alot of the "action," but to my uninformed way of thinking, the civil rights mentioned in the Declaration of Independence, granted by our Constitution apply to everyone equally throughout the United States. What? Is it possible that gays aren't allowed to vote?? How crazy are things where you live??

    It probably will take a test case brought by the ACLU to shake things up, but with the Supreme Court so evenly divided, this might take a while. Thankfully, the younger generation is more open-minded about cultural issues regarding race, sexual orientation and life style. We are all hoping for a more tolerant world in years to come. Thanks for your beautiful writing.

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  47. lisabeth7:53 AM

    Gryphen, great post, your daughter is lucky to have you and vice versa! I have a lot of gay friends and none of them "chose it." I know how much they struggled and I do think things are easier now then they were 20 years ago even for gay people. Several of my friends got married (to the opposite sex) because they felt they had to and it took them decades to come to terms with it. Luckily your daughter had you to help her be who she was right from the early years! I hope she likes Alaska and I am looking forward to seeing a report of what happened last night.........

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  48. Anonymous9:03 AM

    Gryphen, sending love and light to you and your daughter. That's a tragic story with a beautiful ending. I'm so glad that you were/are there for her. Good luck tonight at the meeting.

    I don't go to church, and I'm not even sure if I'm a Christian anymore, but I absolutely hate how the born-agains have co-opted the term Christian to mean something very different from the love and acceptance that Christ symbolized.

    If I were to choose a church, I would look seriously at the United Church of Christ, which appears to be the most inclusive protestant denomination. Perhaps you've seen their video commercials highlighting their acceptance of all those whom are turned away by other churches.

    About your site - I don't come here or comment very often because this site continually crashes my browser. This doesn't happen to me anywhere else, and I have no idea why it happens here. Does anyone else have this problem?

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  49. Anonymous2:36 PM

    re browser crashes: try one of the newer browsers -- NOT IE! -- or just a different one. Use a mac if you can.

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  50. Anonymous3:08 PM

    YOU are a good dad!

    I wish your daughter the shiniest happiest future, in Alaska or where ever she decides to land....

    aloha!

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  51. Your daughter sounds like one awesome human being.

    But she's had a wonderful example of a wonderful human being in her father.

    All the best to you both.

    Nan

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  52. This is an awesome post Gryphen. Thank you & your daughter for sharing something so personal. It takes bravery, especially in this political climate.

    We attend church weekly & are believers. I've told my kids I don't care who you choose to love/marry, I will always love and support you.

    (I've had to go back on that a bit b/c my son adores his fluffy little princess (a white Lionhead bunny), she thinks he's her bunny soulmate and he keeps asking why he can't marry her when he grows up. I draw the line at bunnies. I've amended that to whomever PERSON you choose I'll support you :)

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  53. Anonymous6:46 AM

    LOL
    beyond supporting the anti discrimination ordinance... okay?
    beyond understanding the ilk directed to our brothers, sisters and in this case our children... okay?
    beyond all that... okay?

    Something tells me, your a papa that is totally wrapped around her pinky!

    Now this gives me big giggles. Be forewared Gryph, I've a sweetie whos "little girl" (approaching 35) is totally talented at that "pinky wrapped" situation.

    Be forewared Gryph, it only gets better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better and better....

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  54. Your story struck a chord! My Daughter was in the same position,almost identical situations.My wife also reacted the same way thank God I didnt.So did the Church!I cant reconcile myself to this kind of Christion behavior ( So called Christion behavior )I left the Church and now choose to honer God without the presence of hypocrits.

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  55. Anonymous11:33 AM

    I have known that you had a "connection" to the gay community by your posts. I am the mother of a gay son who is truly amazing & one of the greatest joys in my life. I am so glad that she has you as a father. The stories that you heard from the LGBT community STILL make me so sad & so angry at the same time. I wish you all the luck in Alaska with this ordinance. BTW, when my son came out it was his two best friends (one from our church & another very Christian boy) who "gave" up on him because he was gay. Their loss as far as I am concerned. His teachers and the rest of his friends treated him so well. I am no longer a Christian and have become an atheist. If there is a God I hope he puts the Fred Phelps, Franklin Grahams, Tony Perkins, & James Dobsons of the world in a special place.

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  56. And there are so many nimrods out there who stand by the idea that being gay is a CHOICE. What young girl (or anyone for that matter)would CHOOSE a lifestyle where one could be kicked out of her place of worship/sanctuary(?!) and alienated from friends? To be harassed, fired from a job, excluded from family...
    Gryphen, THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT FATHER and giving your daughter a sanctuary to come forth live true to herself~ Much luck and joy to her!

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  57. Anonymous2:25 PM

    I have been reading your blog since the election. This post hit me hard. I nearly lost my daughter 10 years ago. I knew by the way she played softball which way she was going. I never said anything about it. I just figured she would let me know when she was ready. Then she talked with some of our crazy right wing relatives who made her feel less than human. A good portion of her family didn't want to include her in anything, other than to try and pray away the gay. I was so involved with my job at the time I didn't see what was happening. She had slipped into a deep depression and after another rejection she tried to end her life. That had to be the worse day of my life. We got the call from her girlfriend. Seeing her in that ER hooked to all the tubes nearly tore my heart out. When she came to, she tried to tell me, but I told her I had known since she was 16. That look I got, I will never forget. First confusion then relief then peace. No one should have to be treated like that. Ever!

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